Just call me insane.

Albert Einstein once said “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”. I guess that means I must be insane because by this time on Wednesday I will have done my 5th IVF egg retrieval. I remember when I was still an IVF newbie and would hear about people that had done 4, 5, 6 IVFs. I would think to myself, "are they insane?????" Yet here I am, in that exact boat.

In my heart I know that we are meant to be parents again and that Chase is meant to be a big brother. I have prayed for this so many times and I know that God intends to answer my prayer. I just hope it is with this IVF that it happens. I will trigger tonight at 9:30 and am scheduled for my ER at 9:00 a.m. on Wednesday. We are going to stay at my mom's tomorrow night since she lives literally 10 minutes away from the surgery center and can watch Chase during the retrieval w/o us having to get him up before the crack of dawn. If you are a prayer, a positive well-wisher, a baby duster, or whatever then it's time to send it our way!

Three cheers for being insane! ;o)




**I am grateful for
1) we've made it to retrieval
2) my lining is nice and thick
3) prayers, prayers and more prayers!
4) stims are over!
5) being insane enough or stubborn enough to keep pushing forward (not sure which it really is!)