Saturday, August 22, 2015

Boy am I bad at this!

I think about blogging often, but then when I actually sit down I get busy paying bills, reading the news, scrolling through Facebook and before I know it, it's time for bed or I've just forgotten!  Things are going great and our Lucky Charm is fantastic.  Last week at my 10w5d appointment he/she measured 11w1d and a hb of 163 bpm.  I go back Thursday at exactly 12 weeks and will be released from my RE, then go directly to my new OB to get started there!  12 weeks, can you believe it?!?!??! Chase is still so excited and Emery still doesn't know.  Chase, Jeff, and my mom would really like to tell her, so I'm thinking we will let Chase tell her soon.  Just have to find the right way.

I went back to work a little over a week ago and the kids start back on Monday.  Emery is thrilled, Chase is tolerating it.  I can already tell it's going to be a challenging year for me, but I can handle anything for a year, right!  I am thinking that I'll extend my maternity leave.  This is our last baby so I would love the extra time with him/her.

Hope all is doing well, it's going to be a big week in our house!

***I am grateful for
1) We had a wonderful summer, even if it did go too fast!
2) An amazing year ahead!
3) 11w2d today, woot, woot!

Friday, July 24, 2015

We don't do boring!

So, where do I begin?  Our Lucky Charm, our princess, vacation?

Things on the baby front are good.  Our numbers never dropped, just slowed drastically which freaked me out.  Long story short, there were two, one did not make it, the other had a beautiful, healthy, strong heartbeat and measures right on track.  Vanishing twin... again.  Bittersweet... again.  We are so thankful and blessed to still have one Lucky Charm and are learning to exhale a little each day.  Our REs feel confident everything will be just fine and we don't need to worry.  Easier said than done.  As of Thursday I was 7 weeks and that video below is from that appointment.  I go back once a week now, still on way too much medicine, shots are killing my hips, but it is oh so worth it.  Next milestone: 10 weeks!  All our levels have maxed out on what the machines go to, so no more blood work... woohoo for that!

video

Princess Emery had her surgery today to patch the hole left from her tubes.  This was the same surgery they did on her other ear a little over a year ago.  They also removed two small warts, one on her finger and one on her thigh.  She did fantastic and her biggest concern is where the wart was on her finger is numb and she doesn't quite understand that.  Hopefully when the meds are out of her system, it won't feel too bad.

Daddy has been on vacation this week with us, which has been great.  We spent a few days in Crystal Beach, the boys did lots of fishing, and we hung out at the beach for hours and hours.  It was great! Hard to believe the whole week has already slipped by!

School is creeping up fast and we all have mixed emotions.  Emery is so ready to go to kindergarten, but Chase has no interest in going back.  He's perfectly content hanging out at home and sleeping/playing all day.  Can't say I blame him.  I love teaching, but I also love being home in the summer with the kids (and still getting my paycheck since it's prorated for the year).

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying what's left of summer!

***I am grateful for
1) a successful surgery
2) Daddy and Chase time when they were fishing
3) Lucky Charm's beautiful heartbeat
4) still a few weeks of summer vacation left!

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

The ball has dropped...

Yesterday I went in for my first ultrasound and it looked great!  For sure one, possibly two, they are calling the 2nd a, "possible team player."  Left with four pictures and instructions to return on Friday.  So, all good, right?  Until my blood work came back and only went from 2998 to 4746.  No where close to where it should have been.  Same thing happened with Emery.  They called and left a message yesterday evening (stupid cell service) after I emailed back through my patient portal freaking out saying that Dr. G wanted them to reassure me not to worry and at this point they are more concerned with what the ultrasound shows than the blood work and everything was fine.  Yeah, easier said than done.  They also said I could come in Wednesday if that would help ease my worries.  *sigh* Oh how nice it would be to just be a normal pregnant person with a normal pregnancy.  Not sure what to do, but I know I'm praying like a mad woman and doing my best to let my faith be bigger than my fear (which is pretty damn big right now).

****I am grateful for
1) a good ultrasound
2) prayers
3) having been here before, I know it can be ok

Friday, July 10, 2015

So, about that whole FET thing...

turns out, it worked! I haven't posted because we haven't announced it officially and to be honest, I'm not even sure who reads this blog anymore, or when we will announce it.  We're remaining cautiously optimistic and taking it one day at a time. Things have just gone so perfectly, that I keep waiting for the ball to drop (although I don't think that's going to happen)! Here's a catch-up of what's been happening:

6/23/15 - Transferred our only two totsickles that were from IVF #5, they thawed beautifully.
6/27/15 - 4dp5dt Negative HPT (I knew it was too early to test, so wasn't bummed a bit)
6/28/15 - 5dp5dt Faint positive
6/29/15 - 6dp5dt Darker positive
*I will just admit it, I have tested every.single.day since
7/3/15 - 10dp5dt Went in early for BETA 226.7 (spectacular)
7/6/15 - 13dp5dt BETA 2 - 938 (wowsers)
7/9/15 - 16dp5dt BETA 3 - 2998 (yep, you read that right) *This was the day our number dropped with the twins and we knew something was wrong, so this was a HUGE relief for me.

Looks like our Lucky Charm will be due March 9, 2016.

I have seriously never had a cycle go this smoothly and am over the moon.  I go in on Monday for an ultrasound and BETA 4.

If you know us and are on Facebook, please don't say anything, we'll announce it later on when we are ready.  Thank you!

***I am grateful for
1) miracles
2) letting our faith be bigger than our fear (that is our motto this time around)
3) taking leaps

Thursday, June 25, 2015

FET and the 2WW

Our two totsickles thawed beautifully and were deemed perfect.  FET was 6/23, BETA is 7/7, but I can go in on the 3rd if I want.  I'll be honest, I'm too scared.  They were a 5 day transfer, so I know something would show by the 3rd, but still... terrified.  God's will be done, but we are crazy enough to want these two to stick around for a good 9 months so we can hold them in our arms!!!!  When this was placed in my hand, it was love at first sight.  Say a prayer they stick.


***I am grateful for
1) These two totsickles
2) giving them the chance, no matter the outcome
3) possibilities
4) Letting our Faith be bigger than our Fear


Saturday, June 6, 2015

Schools out for summer!

Schools out and summer has officially begun!  We now have a kindergartner and a 5th grader, how the heck did that happen?  No to mention I just finished my 13th year of teaching, it sure has gone by fast!  We are very excited about summer and although we don't have any major plans, I imagine we will keep ourselves quite busy.  Swimming with friends, church camp, fishing, New Orleans, bowling, dance, gymnastics... should be fun.

On the FET front, we've started the roller coaster.  D3 monitoring done yesterday and right now we have a tentative transfer date of June 23rd.  It's so different than a fresh cycle, lots less involved for sure.  Guess we'll know something by July 4th if all goes as planned.  Trying to remain cautiously optimistic, but in reality, I'm a nervous Nelly.

Here's to hoping!

****I am grateful for
1) weekends where all the family is home
2) warm blankets
3) summer vacation

Saturday, April 25, 2015

It's been 6 years since...

we've done an IVF cycle.  That was the 5th cycle and it blessed us with the princess.  It also blessed us with two totsicles.  That was a first for us.  For 6 years the "tots" have been waiting, waiting for the time when we'd see if they too would join our family.  We've come close to doing a FET many times, but for one reason or another we haven't.  Our RE has retired for lack of a better word.  Well really, he just doesn't see patients anymore, he runs the financial side.  However, Friday, we have an appointment.  The agreement is we'll meet with one of the other REs to monitor the FET and then our RE will do the transfer.  So it looks like we're heading for our last hurrah.  I'm not even sure how to feel.  I'm scared to think this could work, I've been heartbroken before and when your hopes are high, it hurts even worse.  So, I am going with the, "what's meant to be will be" mantra and praying that God's will be done.  Here goes nothing...

**I am grateful for
1) our RE's office and the wonderful staff
2) Dr. Gill, and the fact he is coming in just for us
3) prayers, they work
4) possibilities