Friday, August 1, 2008

This can't be happening!

Our BETA dropped to 166 today. I can't believe this. We have been here before with Chase. It means one of two things.

1) We are losing the pregnancy
2) We are losing a twin

Now I say the most difficult prayer, please Dear Lord, please let us only be losing a twin. I just don't understand.

**I am grateful for:
1) prayers, please please send them
2) my miracle, please don't take it away
3) Chase, when he sees my tears, he makes me smile
4) hope
5) believe that this will be ok

9 comments:

Diana said...

Kahla, first I want to tell you that with all my heart I'm praying for you and the little miracle(s) within.

You know that I have had experience with equations such as this, and betas that do not do as they should. I'm a little confused by the numbers. A drop from 299 to 166 in two days seems unusual, especially if you are not bleeding. Could there be a lab error?

I can only guess at your terror and pain right now. I'm so sad for what you must be going through. Having been there, my best advice is to truly exist in the moment, and send all your hope and best thoughts inside. Deal with the what ifs later. For now, just breathe and keep the faith. Oh, and take it easy, too: no heavy lifting, stay very hydrated, put your feet up, try to keep stress at bay to the best of your ability.

You are an incredible person, a great mom, and deserve every happiness. I sincerely hope you have reason to celebrate very shortly.

Love,
Diana

t_in_fl said...

Sending you lots of prayers, Kahla.

Tracie said...

Kahla,
I am so very sorry this is happening. Please know that I am saying a prayer for the best possible outcome. Please take it easy this weekend and know that many of us are thinking about you.
Tracie

Rooney's Little Musings said...

Kahla,

I'm so sorry for such scary news! Please know that I will be praying so hard for you!

I know it is so hard to stay calm and positive when you are scared to death.

I will pray for peace and calm feelings for you, as well as a good outcome.

Anonymous said...

(Courtney) Praying for you Kahla! I think you have received such wise and comforting words here and I, too, shall be joining with the others in praying for you and your family and praying for peace and for the best possible outcome

crayonmommy said...

Sending prayers for you. Love you.

Stephanie said...

Ya'll have been in my prayers throughout and I will be praying for you now. I hope that you get good news soon. Hugs to you and may God hold you in his grip now and always.

Katie Baker said...

Gosh Kahla...we will stay positive. We are always thinking of you guys. Hugs to all of you. Love you!

Jen4 @ Amazing Trips said...

Kahla, I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this time of uncertainty. You have been in our prayers - and will continue to be.