Friday, August 8, 2008

No celebration today

Our BETA is back down to 190. We are stopping all meds and will go in on Monday afternoon for a blood draw and to talk directly to our RE. He still thinks it could be vanishing twin or it could be a pregnancy that is over but being sustained by the meds. My hopes are not high, I'm a reality person. I don't think I can handle the roller coaster anymore. I just want this part to end. We'll try again as soon as he gives us the all clear. I just never thought we'd be in this position and it breaks my heart.

**I am grateful for
1) tomorrow is a new day
2) time will ease the pain
3) this kind of pain is rare
4) I will go on to smile again
5) I have Chase


Anonymous said...


Miss Becky said...

(((((HUGS))))) I was so hoping that my rainbow last night was a sign of something good for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers... If you need a break just head up here to Pennsylvania!!
Lots of LOVE and hugs,

Anonymous said...

I am not going to say anything that I havent already said but I offer you my shoulder if you need it.

Katie Baker said...

Well, as I have said before, we'll continuing praying. I know it's so hard! Let me know if you need anything.

Diana said...

I'm so sorry, Kahla. This was a conclusion none of us wanted to see for you. It must have been absolutely devastating to learn of those results. I hate to think of you in pain, but know you must be suffering so.

I hope this sad chapter will conclude quickly and easily for you (at least physically) so that you can get past it and on to your next step as I know you want to. If you have any questions or need to talk about the part that comes next, I am available.

Fortify yourself. Surround yourself with your comforts, your faith, and your friends. It will be hard, but you'll get through this.

I'm thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. And the little baby, too.


Lathan, Lauren & Logan said...

How terribly unfair...

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry that you have had to ride this roller coaster and that today's news was not what you, and SO MANY along with you, were hoping. While I will still be praying for a miracle for you, I will also be praying that if Monday doesn't bring miracle news, that you might have closure quickly rather than something drawn out.
Most of all, I will be praying for God's peace and comfort and healing. He was there when we found out Micah and Chase were in our lives; He was there when my little boy died; and even though right now hurts so much, He's walking with you right now too. We don't always know the "why" when He permits certain things to happen but we DO know He loves us so much, and that He cares about us and that He is with us.
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." 2 Cor 1:3-4
Thinking of you and hurting for you and keeping you all in my prayers, Courtney

Tracie said...

I don't have any words other than I am so sorry. Please take care of yourself.

Stephanie said...

Kahla, I am so very sorry. While there are no words, please know there are many prayers being lifted up in ya'lls behalf. Lots of hugs.

crayonmommy said...

I am so sorry to hear such sad news for your family. I am proud of how positive you are trying to be, even though I know your heart is breaking. Please know that I am thinking about you and your family. Love you.

Mommy Daisy said...

Aww, sweetie, I'm so sorry. Still holding out hope for the best.

Courtney said...

Kahla, thinking of you and your family and hoping today was a peaceful and encouraging day for you. I know you have posted a number of times about your church and how inspired and encouraged you can be and I hope today was such a day for you.

kristi said...

I wish I could give you a big hug. I am so very sorry for your loss.