Monday, February 9, 2009

A nonupdate update

No news really. I do have stuff to blog about, but I'm so tired that it'll have to wait until another day. I had another round of bloodwork today and will be taking another HCG booster. In both IVFs that I was pregnant I boostered once, in the two IVFs that did not work, I boostered multiple times. So now I'm terrified. My HCG was 21.6, which means nothing because four days ago... I boostered. At this same time last cycle is was mid-20 and we didn't booster. So basically I know nothing more than I did before my bloodwork and I'm so freaking scared. I hate IF.


**I am grateful for
1) no matter what the outcome, we have Chase
2) no matter what the outcome, we are not the kind to give up
3) no matter what the outcome, we have each other
4) no matter what the outcome, God will bless us with another child
5) no matter what the outcome, life will go on


bb said...

Good Lord the waitng right!? Me too. I just don't know what to think and I hate waiting. I know you do too!

Out of curiousity, why do they do the boosters? I guess my clinic doesnn't do it or at least I haven't heard of it so far.

Hang in there, I am right there with you... and also I wanted to say I like the 5 things you are thankful for after every post. We do all have things to be very thankful for despite this difficulty in our lives.

Mary said...

IF sucks. B.A.D.L.Y. Sorry, sweetie.

Rooney's Little Musings said...

Oh Kahla,

I can only imagine the horrible time it is waiting. Just know that there are a lot of people waiting with you and praying for you.

Have you heard the new song on KSBJ, by John Waller, called "Waiting?"

It has been such a blessing to me.

Hope the time goes fast.

Teresa said...

I'm sure this wait is almost unbearable. Everything good is worth waiting for right? So it HAS to be good news mama!

Tracie said...

It sure does suck. I'm praying for only the greatest of news.

Michelle said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Hang in there, I know waiting really sucks.

Chelle said...

I hope you get some rest. I'm sorry about the waiting. Waiting sucks. Period. Hang in there!


Becky G. in PA said...

Sweetie - Hang in there. Dr. G knows what he is doing! and don't forget, I triggered 2x with the triplets and had the twins 8 months later. I wish I was there with you! And you're absolutely right... I F stinks!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and praying for you. As Tom Petty would sing, the waiting is the hardest part! And it is, but you are getting closer and closer to your beta every day.

My clinic doesn't do boosters, so I don't really grasp the ins and outs of having more than one--but I like Becky G's story and hope you will have one just like it! :-)

Hang in there in this time of waiting. I loved your list of things for which you are thankful. I also LOVED Mr. Chase's birthday invite! May you feel queasy and tired for all the best reasons on that day (the point is not to wish you queasiness, it's just my way of saying I hope you are well into your first trimester then!!!)

Thinking of you,

AmandaHoyt said...

I'm praying the numbers don't mean much at this point and that you get good news very soon.
I'm sorry you are having a hard time.

Lathan, Lauren & Logan said...

Thinking of you and sending LOTS of hugs your way. Waiting SUCKS!!!

Katie Baker said...

Thinking and praying for you. We love y'all!

Stephanie said...

Hey Girl - Praying for you here too! Just wanted you to know that ya'll are in my thoughts.

Peggy C. said...

Can't pretend to know what you are going through, but I do know the suspense of waiting for something and wanting it so badly it makes you sick. You had her in your class last year! LoL. It tooks us four years to get pregnant, mainly because we wanted it too much and it stressed us out.

Hang in there, not much longer. Through it all, I think you have a pretty large support group here!

BTW, we got Chase's invites in the mail today. They are so freaking awesome!!!! Be expecting Lexie's next month.... it will be coming in a bottle, so make sure Chase checks the mail.

I don't know if God is sending me signs, but my word verification today is DOUBLE. Could he be telling me something? This is the third time.