Monday, May 19, 2008

One of "those" days

I'm not sure if today could have been worse. After a horrible night's sleep I managed to get out the door *almost* on time. I dropped Chase off at the sitter and was in the middle of a phone call when my cell phone screen went black. I don't know if you have ever had this happen to you, but it's not good. You can't access anything. No numbers. No calendar. No clock. You get the picture. I have a replacement on the way and I can see the money signs now. Do you know how hard it is to have to guess what type of ring your phone is on when you can't see anything... not easy.

I arrive at work only to remember that I have training until 9:30 and have nothing ready for my kids to do while I'm out. Ever heard the saying, "idle hands are the devil's playground?" It is so true. Fortunately my aide rocks and saved the day. When I walked back in to class after my training you would have thought that 1) I had been gone for years and 2) it was the first day of school because they certainly don't remember any of the rules we've learned this year and if they do remember them, they don't care to follow them. I bet I said, "School isn't out yet" at least 100 times today.

I had CPS come to visit about a student... no comment beyond that.

Jeff's company is having to lay people off and although we are not worried about him being one, we are afraid of pay cuts, benefit cuts, etc. This is NOT good... remember the new house we JUST bought?????

I got in my Tahoe to leave and looked at the mirror where the outside temperature was reading 99 degrees... I knew it was hot. Of course it went down some, but not enough. After viewing the "way too hot" temp my eyes were drawn to the nice foot long crack that goes right across the drivers side of the window. DAMN IT. Guess I'll be replacing that too.

I run to the store to get allergy meds for Chase when I get a message (because God forbid my phone actually ring) from my sitter saying she has to have a day off... tomorrow. WTF? Are you kidding me????

I thought surely I'd been handed enough to fill my plate today, but another person I love dearly told me she is pg tonight. I know she will read this and I'm happy for her, I really, really, really am. She's an awesome mom and has been through a loss just like us. She deserves this. But man, it makes me so sad for us. I think everyone is pg, but me.

I also realize that at this point, there is no way we can come up with $4500 for IVF, it just doesn't look like it's going to happen. :o(

I know that God never gives you more than you can handle, but I sure wish he didn't think I could handle quite so much.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear about your terrible day. I hope that today was much, much better. Just remember, Not too much longer until your fabulous vacation. I know you need it.:0)

crayonmommy said...

I am sorry about your rough day. Seems when it rains, it pours! And to tell you the truth, God is funny sometimes. It seems we all get what we DON'T WANT or DON'T GET what we WANTS MOST! I wish you could get pregnant. I really do. I am still praying that this will be a reality for you, my SIL and Rhonda. Life sucks sometimes!