Friday, January 15, 2010

Oh to be young again.

Being a teacher I see LOTS of kids. Kids in the halls, in the bathrooms, in the cafeteria, in front of me, behind me, beside me, outside of school in the stores (I swear they can "feel" it when a teacher walks through the doors and will hunt that poor soul down stalking them from behind the shelves... but that's a whole nother post), in my dreams - you get the picture. That gives me a lot of time to just take in what their little worlds are like. I know there are exceptions to everything, but for the most part life is so innocent with them. No worries, no fears, no what will tomorrow bring? For most, their biggest stress is will they get their homework done before it's too dark to play outside. I think I want that as my biggest stress.

We have had some really bumpy times here lately. Jeff's career field is really suffering because of this economy and his pay and work hours have been cut drastically. In fact, after gathering up the W-2's we made $20,000 less this year than last. How sad is that? Of course when money issues come up, so does the stress level. Too many times lately I've found myself wide awake (and not from the exhaustion of having a newborn) wondering how I can fix this. Stress eating, which I sooo do not need... how come I couldn't be a stress non-eater? He's looking for other work, but he's been with this company for 17 years and this is all he has done... he's only 37. Surveying companies aren't hiring, other companies aren't hiring, it's all very, very frustrating.

I would not trade my life for anything. I'm a very lucky, blessed woman. I have an awesome husband that is my bestfriend. Two beautiful, perfect children. Wonderful parents and family. I know I'm lucky. But sometimes, I catch that glimpse of a child skipping down the hall with no cares in the world and I think, "Oh to have that for just a day would be so nice!" Then it's back to reality. ;o) Surely I'm not the only one who thinks this right? Sometimes I feel awful to even think it, like I'm not appreciating what I have!

Anywho, enough about my whining. It's time to call it a day (at work, I only wish I were going to bed... yes, I'm blogging at work) and head home. I hope that everyone has a fantastic weekend, not too cold, not too hot, not too wet, but just right! Looks like we'll be getting some rain tomorrow in our neck of the woods, but I'm sure we'll manage. In fact, I'm pretty sure I could manage just about any weather as long as it's on the weekend!


****I am grateful for
1) the Tahoe is paid in full!
2) awesome parents (on both sides)
3) the blessings we receive
4) the refund check we got from overpaying Chase's ENT - always nice to not get a bill!
5) Friday, this girl loves her some Fridays!


Stacy E. said...

Hang in there. Sending prayers that Jeff either gets more work at his current job or is able to find a new opportunity soon. I know this economy sucks....holler if I can do anything to help!