Yes, I know you are wondering where we stand w/IVF

I didn't want to post sad or upsetting news, so I hadn't posted. But I've been asked several times (ok, more than several) so here it goes. I had so hoped to hear good news this past Wednesday and even though what I heard isn't the worst ever, it certainly wasn't good. I was told that I needed to booster my HCG, the first since the Wednesday after our transfer when we boostered. I have been told no BETA numbers but I know they run this every time and had been told no boosters were a good thing, so this scared me. I asked if my numbers went down and they said no, but they have kind of plateaued. That means w/o them saying it that I'm pg, but it also means either we are losing one baby or losing the baby. We had vanishing twin w/Chase and went through this, so I'm praying we are not going to lose the baby... that we are only losing one. Isn't that one of the hardest prayers you can imagine? To have only lost one baby? It kills me. Of course they were closed on Friday so I don't get bloodwork again until Monday. At that time it will have either gone up (good) or down (bad). If you pray, we so need them right now. I have no idea what Monday will bring. I believe in my heart this cycle would make Chase a big brother and I saw my rainbow for those that know what I'm talking about. But right now, I just feel sick.