Monday, September 17, 2007

He said I'd know....

Our RE told me that I'd know when I was ready to cycle again. Last time I was excited and eager. I was ready for the shots, ready for the ultrasounds, ready for it all. I figured when the time was right, I'd feel that way again. Yet here we are, just two weeks away from starting birth control pills for IVF #3 and I feel none of that. In fact, I feel scared and sick when I think about it. *sigh* I don't know what it means. Does it mean that I'm not ready? Does it mean that I want to just call it quits? Please God, help me through this because my time is running out fast. I don't know what to do. :o(

Also, my mom has a big job interview in the morning that we would all really, really love for her to get an offer on. So if you are the praying type, please send them her way! TIA


Tracy B said...

It is just so difficult to have failed attempts. Hopefully this next attempt will be successfull.

Tracy B
Lurker on Babysteps

Jen4 @ Amazing Trips said...

I know, I know. It is so painful to try and not have it be successful. If you are going in to this not feeling 100% optimistic >> it can really take a toll on your psyche.

With our second round, I felt like it wasn't going to work - before it even started. And it didn't. On our third round, I just felt like I was buckling down and I was in it for the long haul. However many cycles it would take to have a baby is however long I was going to stick with it. That third cycle is when it worked. (Boy did it ever!!)

Take it easy. Be gentle on yourself. Have lots of fun and lots of sex. I'm convinced sex helps you to relax more than anything else and your embies NEED for you to be relaxed. (Sorry, I hope your mom and family don't read this!!) :)