Saturday, September 3, 2011

Today my Princess lost one of her favorite playmates and I....

lost one of the greatest men I've ever known. I feel like my heart is broken into a million pieces.
I did not expect this. I knew he'd be fine. I was not prepared. I am not prepared. What do I tell my children? What do I tell the princess? Princess' deserve to have their Paw and now mine doesn't. I'm terrified for my grandmother, she is devastated. I'm heartbroken for my mom. I can hear the nurses words so clear and when the doctor came in I just wanted to scream. It feels like a very bad dream that I can't wake up from. 12 years ago he gave me away at our wedding. I wish I had 12 more years with him. It just doesn't seem fair.

***I am grateful for
1) he is not suffering
2) all the family
3) every single moment we had together
4) that my children got to know him
5) that he got to know my children


Amber said...

I am SO sorry, Kahla.

Thinking of you.

Stacy E. said...


I know Paw was a very special man who you will miss deeply, and I am so sorry that you lost him. Today's service was beautiful, and I'm sure Paw would have loved seeing his family come together the way everyone did this weekend. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Please let me know if I can do anything.