A thanks

Just a quick thank you for all the support ya'll have been showing me. I had bloodwork again yesterday and we did not booster again because things looked good. In my head, I'm back in the right mindset and feeling very positive. I truly believe that come October, we'll be holding a new baby in our arms... our new baby. I've been doing lots of math and lots of comparing of numbers to previous cycles and it just feels good. Your comments mean more than I can say, it's nice to know I'm not alone! (And Becky thanks for that reminder that you had two boosters too since you used Dr. G, you are proof that two boosters didn't necessarily mean bad things!)

~Kahla

**I am grateful for
1) sleeping better last night
2) all my peeps
3) all the prayers
4) dreams can come true
5) the wait is almost over!

A nonupdate update

No news really. I do have stuff to blog about, but I'm so tired that it'll have to wait until another day. I had another round of bloodwork today and will be taking another HCG booster. In both IVFs that I was pregnant I boostered once, in the two IVFs that did not work, I boostered multiple times. So now I'm terrified. My HCG was 21.6, which means nothing because four days ago... I boostered. At this same time last cycle is was mid-20 and we didn't booster. So basically I know nothing more than I did before my bloodwork and I'm so freaking scared. I hate IF.

~Kahla

**I am grateful for
1) no matter what the outcome, we have Chase
2) no matter what the outcome, we are not the kind to give up
3) no matter what the outcome, we have each other
4) no matter what the outcome, God will bless us with another child
5) no matter what the outcome, life will go on

Chase's Party Invite

My rockin' cousin, Randi, once again came to our rescue and made Chase's birthday party invitations. Chase has been set on the theme since last year and all I can say is this girl has some serious talent. This is our third year in a row that she has made our invitations and we have never been disappointed. In return for the invites, we pay their gas to come to the party from MS, which totally rocks because 1) we get to see them and 2) we get super invites!

We are looking at starting a business so if you need invites, just let me know and we can work out a deal! Would you like to guess the theme for this year's party????


Just click on the invite to see the invite in all it's glory. Isn't it totally awesome??!??!?!? And yes, it's a Buzz Lightyear theme just in case you couldn't tell! *wink*




**I am grateful
1) four days of the waiting down (it is four, right)
2) TGIF!
3) great weather at recess today
4) a delicious Mexican dinner w/my boys and Aunt Stacy
5) the weekend, gotta love it

Breaking the Board

Last night Chase tested for his yellow-stripe belt at Tang Soo Do. Since I was on bedrest I wasn't able to make it so Jeff took lots of video and pictures for me. His regular instructor is Miss. Sophia, however Master Don (the owner) came from their other location to administer the tests. While they are in Tiny Tigers the testing is mostly a follow-our-lead kinda thing and fairly simple. Chase is the youngest student in his class and I was terrified he'd be super shy and not want to participate. Turns out after one minor moment that was quickly fixed when Master Don had Daddy come out on the mat to work along-side Chase, all went well. I have several more videos to upload, but here is the best one! Master Don is on the floor and Miss. Sophia can be seen on the left side helping coax Chase along. Note Chase does not have on his glasses, he refused to wear them at Tang Soo Do because a little boy there is obsessed w/them and Chase hates the attention. The video is Chase breaking a board with his foot. In practice they have always used a break-away board, but this was the real thing. Master Don even signed it and Chase got to bring it home. I tried to break it with my hands but it was totally not gonna happen. I was VERY impressed!





**I am grateful for
1) my Tiny Tiger
2) last day of bedrest!!!
3) email
4) my rockin' cousin, Randi, that did Chase's party invite (preview coming soon!!!)
5) sleeping in, haven't done it in ages until this morning.... so nice

I can't believe it, we have totsicles!!!!

Out of our four previous IVFs we have never had totsicles (frozen embies). My RE has stated that fresh cycles are best and being self-pay he preferred fresh cycles for us. Now I'm not saying he refused to freeze for us, I'm just saying we never had any quite make the grade! Turns out IVF #5 has been different and we are now the proud parents of two totsicles that were frozen at blasts!!! I am so excited!!!! I fully expect this cycle to work, but it's kinda reassuring to know they are there!!! (and yes, even if this cycle works we will eventually do a FET, they will not be destroyed)




**I am grateful for
1) a good day
2) one more day of bedrest and I'm done!
3) our totsicles
4) Chase is testing for his yellow stripe belt tonight (but I'm missing it)
5) great weather

2 on 02/02 - The much awaited and anticipated ET post! (yeah, right)

We are home from the ET and resting away! When Dr. G came in to give us the report it broke down like this (love this grading system!) 1 - perfect, fully expanded blast, 2 - very, very nice almost fully expanded blasts, 2 at morulas and almost blasts, and not sure on the remaining 3 (he didn't say so I assume they did not make it). In the past we have transferred 3, 3, 4, and 3 so imagine my surprise when I was told that today we would be transferring only 2! He said these were high quality embryos and he was really worried about triplets and knew we would not reduce so he would not budge on the number. Since I trust him completely (and my plea of we did 3 last time) did not change his mind, two it was. He was right, we would not reduce and since our goal is one healthy baby, I really am totally ok with two (see people, responsible REs do not transfer 8)! He did say the would freeze the remaining blast and watch the morulas to see if they could freeze them, but I'll be shocked if we have any frozen since we haven't out of four previous cycles. I'd love it, but be shocked just the same!

As for our BETA, it's scheduled for two weeks from today so patince is a virtue. However, I feel really confident about this cycle and besides, transferring 2 on 02/02 has to be some extra luck!




***I am grateful for
1) our two babies on board
2) an RE that really does care
3) prayer, hope, luck, whatever it takes
4) bedrest, hate it but it can't hurt
5) the laptop, love it on bedrest

Totally, completely irresponsible (another Oct.uplet post)

I am totally shocked to say this but it turns out the Oct.uplet mom DID do IVF. WTF? I mean SERIOUSLY, WTF????? For an RE to transfer 8 embryos and for a patient to want to transfer 8 embryos is totally, completely irresponsible. That RE should have their license revoked and this chick needs to be put in a mental institute. The whole thing makes me sick. For the record let me say that this is by no means the norm for IVF and is the result of two totally idiotic people. So wrong, in so many ways! And yes I know the article said they implanted (which should read transferred, stupid idiots) far less than 8 but they multiplied - I'd just like to throw out a BS to that one, don't tell me they transferred say 4 and they all split.... again, WTF ever!